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| Wednesday, December 27, 2006 |
Okay... So... Last time I posted something...
I was kind of being a bitch.
I agree,
a good half of the problem
in our last fight
was me.
And I feel terrible
about the last line.
But I won't delete it.
I'll forgive...
But I won't forget.
Which is the new motto of the month,
apparently.
Really...
Life's okay right now.
Not too hectic.
I'm really excited to be going
back to school.
I miss people.
I need new ones.
I didn't get an iPod,
like I had asked for, for Christmas.
But I got a MP3/Video/Picture displayer thing
which was really awesome.
Problem?
It only held 34 songs.
How in HELL am I supposed
to get by with only 34 songs?
So... we're taking it back
tomorrow
and I'm getting an iPod. ^__^
I've been at my dad's the last few days,
and I think I'm staying
until Friday.
Because Michele's going
to a book store
and, of course,
I'm dying to go, too.
I need new books.
I got this purse for Christmas,
and I think it's the greatest invention EVER.
It's pink with
red, yellow, blue, orange and white
ameba looking things all over it.
Very cute.
Very much my style.
Which is great
because this year was
supposed to be a really bad Christmas.
It turned out okay, though.
I got my guitar.
It's very lovely,
and I spent all day yesterday
learning how to play
a Terra Naomi song.
I think I have it memorized by now.
My eyes hurt.
More than usual.
I can't keep them fixed on
one thing.
Like, I can't focus.
And it kind of scares me.
o.0
Because, sometimes,
I think, what if I'm going blind?
Melissa has bad eyesight.
And so does Keirstin.
I only ever needed to wear
glasses when I was reading.
But now, no matter what
I'm doing,
it's a struggle.
I have to squint and
close my eyes and reopen them
to get pictures right.
And, every night,
when I'm trying to fall asleep,
I have to open them
because, even though my eyes
are closed,
it feels like their crossing.
Enough already about my problems.
Time for excitement.
School.
I'm so ready, it's scary.
I'm just a little worried,
because I'll be a whole grading
period behind everyone else.
Guess I'll just have to work
twice as hard
because I... need to buckle down.
My grades weren't quite so hot
last grading period
and I have college to worry about.
They're going to look
at my high school carrier and say,
"it took her two years
to really get into the groove.
Do we really want her here?"
Of course they do.
I'm actually quite smart.
I don't have a problem in any subject, really,
except math.
I can't do anything outloud.
I have to write everything down.
If I don't see it,
I just can't do it.
Mrs. Hodge nearly laid me on my deathbed
in eigth grade, making us say times tables
out loud.
With no paper.
I don't see why teachers
don't understand
that I can't just... do it.
If it's on paper, no problem.
I'm a math whizz.
How'd I end up talking about
problems again?
I guess that's what blogs are for, though,
right?
I'm supposed to put
personal information on the internet
for complete strangers to read
and I'll bet everything in my back pocket
no one even reads this.
Maybe I'll start putting links up
every where I post something?
My blog matters, kinda, ya'know?
I could show teenage girls something.
I could be... like a role model,
except opposite.
Don't end up like me.
I died my hair pink.
And I hate it.
So... I'm going to dye it...
GUESS!!!
Dark blonde.
Like Hilary Duff's in
the Perfect Man.
I love her hair color in that
movie.
And I know I look okay
as a blonde because,
up until seventh grade,
I was platinum blonde.
Oh, those were fun times.
That was forever ago, though.
So I might not look so hot.
But, hey, I'm entering
a new chapter of my life.
I need a new hair color to match
the new me.
It has to be fierce,
yet laid back,
and strong,
but soft.
And, to me, this hair color
just represents everything I want to be.
Everything I'm going to be,
starting January 3rd, I think.
I still have a couple days
to be lazy as hell. ;)
Maybe I'll actually be buckled down enough
to actually blog every now and again.
Maybe.
| Girl of Nothing but Grays 11:41 AM |
